Wow, it’s been quite awhile since I’ve written a post. I’ve been quite busy and I apologize for not visiting any blogs or even keeping my own updated.
My very own Canadian crush and I were discussing a certain topic the other day. I had told him that I’ve never had a crush on any of my close intimate friends. When I entered into the friendship, I had known that they were straight and it would never go anywhere beyond friendship. It never entered my mind to lust after them, or to even use their images for those late night relaxation massage therapies that a single man has to turn to in order to de-stress.
I don’t know how many people actually have crushes on their friends. I do know that some of the female friends I have say that they have crushes on their male friends. Of course, many of my straight male friends say that a platonic friendship between a male and female does not exist. Their reasoning of course is that they eventually will bed their female friends.
I do have crushes on some straight acquaintances though. There have been some classmates that have caught my eye and have been the leading roles of some fantasy. However, I think once I’ve stepped over the line of friendship, those feelings disappear.
I don’t see my friends as objects of lust. I do see them as who they are to me. They are people who have made me laugh. They have made me cry. They sit silently when they need to and talk up a storm when I need them to. They listen to talk about my day and they want to tell me about theirs. If I told them I am gay, would they be able to understand that all I ever wanted from them was their friendship.