I’m sorry I haven’t been visiting blogs or posting anything lately. And I do have a lot to write about, I just haven’t had the energy to come here and write (and I’m not physically tired, just a little mentally tired). There are so many things that I want to write about–about coming out to some of my friends, about not coming out to family, my views on the whole situation. I am still going to write about all that stuff. But for right now, just accept my apology for not writing.
So much is going through my mind right now. I’m still reeling in the fact that one of my best friends from college didn’t think anything of it when I said “I’m gay”. Of course there was the few seconds of stun, but for the most part he didn’t react. Just the fact that he said, “as long as you keep loving me and my family, nothing has changed and it won’t”. And then our conversation went on as usual.
This weekend I hung out with some of my cousins and family friends (people I have grown up with and are more than family to us). And I still couldn’t bring myself to tell them. My cousin Dennis (the cousin I had come out to) had told me that it might be better not to say anything to them. He told me that he didn’t want to squash the me that wanted to express myself, but to protect my feelings. This weekend I understood a little of what he was saying, that maybe in some cases it is better left unsaid.
So so much going through my mind right now. But I’ve got a sunroof right?
Thanks for being patient and reading the sporadic posts that I write. Thanks for the support that you have given me throughout my almost two years of writing. And thanks in advance for the support that I hopefully will continue to get as I go through this journey.