This past week I’ve been under a lot of stress. For some reason I feel more stressed now than I did in medical school. I’ve sent out some applications for residency programs and waiting for the response is killing me. It all goes back to that insecure nag which is tugging at me–not being good enough.
My cousins have been here, but they noticed the mood swings and have mainly kept quiet or have gone out. I hope I’m not the reason that they’ve gone otu every night since they’ve been here. Hopefully it’s because they are on vacation and enjoying being away from the north (although we’ve had temperatures in the low 60’s and even 50’s this week).
I’ve tried alleviating the stress by going to the gym and using the stair-stepper and treadmill. And for the time being while I’m exercising and my body is caught up in getting itself into shape, I forget about all the worries. But when I come home to check my email and see that there are not yet any responses, I feel the weight once again on my shoulders.