The other night on the show The Twilight Zone the episode where the normal looking girl wanted surgery so that she could look like everyone else (have a pig nose) was on. I was watching it and wondering why she was considered ugly or deformed when actually she was quite pretty. The pig-nosed people then sent her away to live with the others who had her same feature. As her escort took her away he assured her that over time she would fit in, that she would be comfortable with the others who were just like her and soon she would forget the world where she once lived. It just reiterates the fact that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
As I started my journey of coming out, I found that I have come to accept myself. Through blog comments and supportive e-mail and supportive phone calls, I have grown to be more comfortable in my own skin. Last weekend I hung out with my straight friends on Friday and my gay ones on Saturday. Some of my straight crew know I am gay and have not treated me differently, not even censoring their icky talk of vagina.
I feel like I’ve grown as a person and that I’ve become more tolerant of differences in opinion and life’s views. I have stated before that these differences help make us unique and that personal growth should be celebrated rather than squashed. I have come to the understanding that most people are afraid of these differences because they themselves are not comfortable in their own skin. They are afraid that because of differences their own shortcoming or weakness will show. However, I believe quite the opposite, that if they recognize the differences their strengths will be highlighted.
I’m beginning to feel like my former self was in this wacky zone. And now this zone only exists as a distant memory.