I mentioned an older couple in my last blog entry. I was fascinated by them, the fact that they have been a couple since the sixties and that they were still a couple. They looked and acted very much in love, like they were still in the early stages of their relationship. It was gross, no PDA, just the feeling that one would get while talking to them and watching the way they reacted to one another.
It made me think that I’ve missed a good portion of my life. Although they stayed in the closet for a good many years, they still had each other. They still had gone to gay clubs (what few there were) and had a circle of gay friends even in their early twenties. In my early twenties, I was still running away from the word gay. I was hiding mostly from myself. They were discovering themselves and finding ways to express it.
Now as I enjoy my new circle of friends and my relationship with Andrew, I find that I could have had this all along had I not shoved it all into the back of a closet.