One of my good friends is going through a relationship break-up. Sometimes just seeing him makes my heart just want to fix all of it. I can’t imagine what he is feeling. He expresses his feelings to me, but I can’t comprehend the hurt he must be feeling.
I vowed to myself that with every relationship I get into, whether it’s friendship or love, that I won’t leave bitter. I also tell myself that every relationship has it’s learning pupose, no matter what the lesson is, that nothing should be left with regret. You can’t regret if you once felt love right?
However, as I get ready to have lunch with Brian and I think about the hurt he feels, I want nothing more than to let his old boyfriend know the hurt he has caused. And I’m wondering, does he feel the same sense of loss that Brian feels? Does he wake up late at night wondering what Brian is thinking? Brian is at that “did he ever love me” stage. I don’t know what to tell him. None of us ever got to meet his significant other.
I know I’ve only known Brian since Christmas, but we’ve become really good friends since then. He’s one of the guys that is attempting to teach me how to dance. I got out with him and Adam at least four times a week. Interesting that in such a few months, he’s become one of my best friends–and yes I know I have quite a few best friends–but he’s up there with my college buddies. I can’t help but feel saddened for him and I really wish I could make it better.
Since I’m new with my own love relationship, I don’t know what could go wrong, what could cause someone to fall out of love with another person. Like I said, I don’t know the whole story. I am only getting Brian’s side. But Brian’s take on the hurt is enough to make me sad.