Every Day

I still think of my partner every day. When the pets act up, I want to pick up the phone and send him a text telling him in detail that they are misbehaving. I want to tell him about how they are doing, what they are doing and that our babies are having a good day.

I had a dream about him yesterday. In the dream, my cousins were going out to eat and I told him I was going to go with him. He said “how are you going to pay”? I replied that I would borrow money (not sure why I didn’t have money to go out to eat–but I digress). In the dream he said that he would take care of it. And then we fooled around a bit. I woke up with a sense that he would always watch over me, look out for me and with a sense of how much he cared.

I was talking with one of our friends on Sunday. He told me that he sometimes forgets that they can’t text one another, until he reaches for his phone and then remembers. We realized it would be like that for a long time, if not forever.

I ate at a new restaurant this week. And as I was browsing the menu, I thought to myself “you would not like that or that…but you would get this and make me try a piece”.

I think of him every day. And I miss him more now than he first passed away.

4 Responses to “Every Day”

  1. Sixpence Notthewiser Says:

    Of course you do.
    And of course you will. You love(d) him.
    He’ll be with you and there’s nothing wrong about it.
    Sending you hugs.


  2. TW Tommy Thompson Says:

    Such a touching entry.. you are an amazing man… there are no other words I can say.

  3. Mistress Borghese Says:

    If you weren’t feeling and thinking like this….then that wouldn’t be normal. And I’m sure some days he may even be giving you memories as a message.

  4. Kirk Says:

    You two obviously had a great relationship.

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