Does He Miss Me

I went to dinner with one of my friends yesterday. He brought his boyfriend who I hadn’t met yet. We had a great time. I laughed a lot and also got to know both of them better. We talked about our coming out stories and how life had changed since.

They both asked about my partner. We became friends after he passed. They never got the pleasure to have met him. Everyone who met him loved him. At his memorial, his sister and I stood for hours being greeted by people who knew him.

I miss him so much, sometimes so much that I want to curl up and hide under a blanket. It’s been over a year since I said goodbye. But it still feels like yesterday. And I know he is in a better place. I know he is with his parents and grandparents. I know he’s with our pup whom he rescued and loved.

I sometimes wonder does he miss me.


7 Responses to “Does He Miss Me”

  1. Mistress Borghese Says:

    “It’s been over a year”. Losing someone does not know a timeline to heal. I think you’re doing and handling this just how you need to be.

    I often wonder if our passed on think of us too.

  2. rjjs8878 Says:

    Yes, he misses you.

  3. Sixpence Notthewiser Says:

    The answer is probably yes.
    You’re an awesome man. You have also to remember that we all grieve and heal differently. There’s not a deadline for grief.
    So glad you’re going out, though.


  4. Sassybear Says:

    Sending a big virtual hug your way. It makes sense that you would have that question, but it seems like you should have no doubt that he does. Hope you find a good memory that makes you smile and fills you with warmth today.

  5. Matt Says:

    More than we will ever know, JM. Hopefully we get to find out some day. Take care.

  6. kent Says:

    That’s what love is all about missing those whom we loved when they are no longer around. Its been eight years for me…. I still miss him but also treasure my new love.

  7. Urspo Says:

    This came to mind; I do not recall if I have shared it yet; apologizes if I did:

    “You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.”

    ― Anne Lamott

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: