December 1, 2013
My cousin got married today. It was absolutely gorgeous and the reception was beautiful. I did my duty and helped with some of the arrangements and kept her stress level down.
During the dance portion of the reception, I noticed how many people danced without care! They didn’t have rhythm and either didn’t care or did not know it. I’m one of those who do not want to look silly, so I don’t dance. I can’t really remember a wedding I danced at. When I was younger, I didn’t dance because I thought that by dancing, I would give myself away as a gay man. I remember dancing in front of the mirror in junior high and thinking “you look like a woman” shaking like that. So since that time, I didn’t dance, not even at my proms or siblings weddings. I did slow dance, but not much else.
Maybe it is time to shake my booty. To not care…and just enjoy myself…
November 23, 2013
While watching one of the Real Housewives reality shows, during commercials, I flipped the channel and happened upon a infomercial. It was for something irrelevant and the voice over said “similar products sell for up to 200 dollars, if you order now you can get one for 10 dollars. But wait a minute, we will send you two for 10 dollars”. Are you kidding me? If this product was really worth 200 dollars, you wouldn’t be selling it for only 5 dollars each. I don’t know why people don’t wake up and realize that these products which we don’t really need are not really worth 200 dollars. And because my television is 62 inches (yes, I am short man who has to compensate) with HD, I could see with clarity that the product was cheaply made.
It makes me think of those knock-off purses that are sold on the streets of New York. Why buy those? I know that people want to look fashionable, but you can look fashionable without having a huge brand name on your shirt, shoes or purses. It is all about the way you wear it. And really, by having those logos, who are you trying to impress. Personally I think some of those logos make something look weird anyway.
November 23, 2013
I know that I keep promising to post…things get in the way and I really shouldn’t let them. But I do.
I’ve missed blogging and I’ve missed being able to express my feelings here and also read your comments and posts. I will do better and I am promising now, before New Years…so I’m going to give it a go.
March 24, 2013
I was recently pondering a statement made by a writer in which he described an actor as “brave” for portraying a gay character. Ummm, why is that considered brave? I thought the very definition of actor was a person who can portray other characters.
For many years some gay actors portrayed heterosexual characters. Was that considered brave? Nope.
Just something to ponder today.
January 11, 2013
So as I have stated, I will be searching for a new opportunity. I am looking for clinical research opportunities. This last position had basically fallen into my lap. I went into it with very little experience. Even as a med school graduate, I realized once I started the job, that I knew relatively little about research, how it is conducted and all that it entails.
So while I am grateful for the experience, I would like to just reiterate that it is time for me to move on.
I signed up for two employment on-line sites. And I am astounded at the opportunities that are out there. There are a lot of research positions. While I am hesitant to apply, because a lot are requiring a lot more experience than I have, I am hoping that the M.D. behind my name may push my application to at least be seen and read.
I’m still hoping to get into residency. I am still hopeful that this will happen. I do however like research and could make a career out of it.
January 6, 2013
This year I had thought my resolutions were going to be simple. I thought, work out more, lose weight, be nicer, be kinder, and be a better friend, relative, son, brother , nephew, and cousin. But I had a pretty rude awakening on Friday.
Something happened at work and I suddenly realized that I don’t belong there anymore. I look back and although I grew a little, got the experience that I needed, I am no longer growing. I am no longer moving in the direction that I want to be. I am grateful for the opportunity, but I need more.
So I’m adding to the list, new employment, which includes new city, new state!
Wish me luck!
December 16, 2012
Today at church, my pastor asked us the question, “can you name one single victim of the horrific crimes that took place on Friday”. She continued to lecture that we know the name of the shooter, know so much about him, tune in to learn more and more. However, we know nothing of the victims.
This made me think about how sensationalized some news stories are. We tune in hoping to find answers, to get a motive, to get more background. With past news stories, we listened to acquaintances say this person was quiet or shy or maybe even that they never would have believed such a crime could be committed by said criminal. However, we never hear about the victims. The innocent lives taken.
Today, my pastor showed a power-point slide with those names. And it took my emotions to an even higher level of sorrow. I was filled with sadness when I heard the news on Friday. It was on my mind the whole day. I silently said prayers for the families involved. I thought about it on Saturday, when I spoke to my nephews and was so thankful that they were still here with us. But seeing those names, the ages of these victims, tore my heart in two. I could barely contain the tears during the sermon. Suddenly the pews were filled with sobbing and sniffles. Our pastor too, had to choke back her own tears.
This tragedy affected so many people. So many lives are now changed forever. The families who have lost loved ones, the innocent children who witnessed this violent act, and the residents of this seemingly happy peaceful town in which it took place. The media should let them grieve, let them heal. I understand the world wants answers and want clues to make sense of this tragedy. But I feel for this town, who has to turn on the television only to see, hear and relive the event that forever changed their lives. I understand our desire to know, but I think sometimes, the broadcast may not focus on the right stuff.
November 30, 2012
Trending in the news is the story of the New York policeman who purchased a pair of boots for a homeless man.
This story tugged at all my heart strings. I sat quietly reading this story while tears rolled down my cheek. Rarely do stories like this go viral. Most people would rather read something more interesting, gossip worthy, or tragic.
This however, restored my belief that man is innately good at heart.
November 25, 2012
It’s my favorite time of the year! Christmas!!
I do however think this time of year goes way too quickly. Between Thanksgiving and New Years, the time just seems to zip by.
I look forward to listening to one of the local stations that plays Christmas music 24 hours a day. I don’t tire of listening to it. Something about Christmas music that doesn’t get boring. One of my favorite fun songs is “Last Christmas”. I easily have about 5 different versions of it on my iPod and I even when it isn’t Christmas, I still play this song.
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving and that you are looking forward to a great Christmas season!
November 21, 2012
There are so many new things I am thankful for at the moment. I am not sure where to begin.
Let’s start with the fact that I want to start blogging again.